James 1:3, NLT

This song tugs at my heart.

“I Believe God. I believe He is working in me no matter what I may feel or how the situation may look. The Lord has begun a good work in me, and He will bring it to full completion.” (Philippians 1:6; 2:13)

I am seeking God and I know that one day I won’t just wake up and all the answers will be right in front of my face. I know that little by little I am growing and I am changing. I’ve opened my heart to Jesus and everyday is a new day to grow in the spirit. I am on my way somewhere… :)

“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, Who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will Himself complete and make you what you ought to be, establish and ground you securely, and strengthen, and settle you.”

1 Peter 5:10

God is so good to me. He never gives me too much that I cannot handle. I know that He pushes me to uncomfortable places because He believes that I am strong enough to handle the battles that come my way. He wants me to be stronger. He wants me to live by faith. I am thankful because He really does believe in me. Through these battles I hope that a little bit of my spirit becomes renewed. I know that negative thoughts that are not of God will try to take strongholds in my mind, but with constant prayer and with my mind always on Him I can conquer over those thoughts. It’s something that I work at every minute of the day. How would God want me to handle this situation? Or What does God want me to say to this person? or How do I feel about this happening?

Lately I have been struggling. God has been testing my faith in Him. I felt like things were too much to handle, but they weren’t. God is a faithful God. He loves me and I am so thankful. And slowly I am being set free. 

What is love?

Everybody talks about it. I wanna know that God’s love is. I wanna embody the love that God wants us to radiate. I always thought that loving someone was just giving them your all, but God’s love is much more than that. Love is not just about telling someone you love them everyday. Love is shown through our actions and through our appreciation of that person. God doesn’t just tell us that He loves. He sent his son Jesus to die for our sins. Now that is an action of love. He blesses us everyday by providing for us. He blesses me with the wonderful people who are in my life who push me to be better and to do better. These are all actions, God isn’t just telling me He cares for me, but He’s putting people into my life to care for me. Over the past few days I’ve realized that through acts of kindness and by putting yourself last you can really express your love to someone. Loving means that you have to be uncomfortable sometimes. And it’s okay to feel that way. I know that I have been selfish, not even knowing that I was. I want to love how God loves not just because it’s the right thing to do, but because I want to.

1:Corinthians 4-7

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 

Today I want to walk in love. I want to change my heart. 

I’ve failed many times. I’ve sought God and made many mistakes. I know where I want my heart to be and that’s with Him. I’ve struggled, like we all do. There is no instruction manuel on how to get to where I wanna be, but my heart is open. With all my heart I am going to earnestly and patiently seek Him.